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I can only hope to keep a beginner's
mind
to withhold nothing but my
expectations,
suspending my beliefs for a brief while
so that I may be in this experience
for what it is without wanting to
change it.
For if I always had a beginner's mind
then there would be no need for a
concept of
limited time, compare and contrast, or
analysis.
No such concepts or ideas could exist,
because there is nothing that exists
prior to
this experience even worth to compare.
So maybe I can go way back
like it's the first crawl on my hands
and knees
wiggling around with anticipation.
Looking, listening, and feeling each
movement
following the next utilizing no tools
but
only a deep seated curiosity in seeing
how this puzzle piece of a body, a
mind, and soul
can fit effortlessly together.
Maybe I can touch and allow the healing
of another
with deep appreciation that this body
in my hands
will never, has never, nor could ever
be like any other.
Therefore it will heal like no other.
It has more capabilities and
possibilities to heal
like none other.
Perhaps the more I sit and surrender to
these unknowing ways,
getting out of the way,
the healing will be allowed to do it's
part.
It is only then when I will have
permission to do my part
that which I am still figuring out with
each touch.
Always reaching for ground zero rather
than looking elsewhere.
Yet at the same time flying high to see
the wide perspective.
With this beginner's mind I can explore
the curiosities
of sensation through tenderness,
compassion, kindness,
eroticism, playfulness, gentleness,
passion, and all those
experiences of movement I take for
granted.
May I appreciate one moment and then
regard it as a daily
and equally unique happening in
another.
I think of the moments of the
imbalances where those touched
need to touch more often
and the one's touching need to be more
touched by others.
I think of how we need to hug ourselves
more, lay a gentle
hand on an elder, and embrace our
children, each others' children.
I hope when these moments come
I receive and give them with gratitude.
A new freshness, quiet solitude, and
cozy feeling
settles in my heart on these first days
of the new year.
These thoughts of letting go, letting
in, accepting,
and reflection are within many people's
minds.
Yet for me the only thing I wish is to
have is a beginner's mind
every day as a healer, teacher, friend,
daughter, lover, and woman.
And through this I enter into
happiness.
