This kriya fell into my lap this week as I noticed I was falling into my usual mental patterns of questioning how I was going to get through Traditional Chinese Medicine School. I was worrying if it was the right choice adding another year to school to complete the TCMP degree versus getting the standard acupuncture degree this August like most of my classmates. Now I am able to catch these thought waves without letting it overwhelm me or causing a spiral into feeding demoting habits. These habits prevent me from managing my time wisely which ultimately stress me out more. It's getting better but is a learning process. We all come across a similar thought process (flight, fight (resist) or freeze) while on any journey of fulfilling an intention or commitment, especially those particularly difficult ones that are worth while yet make us question, "Why in the world am I doing this?"
Once I completed the kriya I noticed my mind was clear and re-directed on the path I originally sought out. I've been doing the kriya every day. The meditation has shown me what I need to do and has made me ultra aware of the habits that keep me from getting the things I need to get done. With that said, I'm ending this post now as I have a lot to do! Hope you enjoy the video!
There is a point in time where we rest in
the womb of the Earth Mother. The soul happilyfloats above it’s new vessel contemplating the cycle of the infinite, birth,
death, and rebirth ofSat Nam.The soul asks, “Do I really want to go back
and do this again? If so, what is it that I am to create in this finite time on
this planet that ever so increasingly becomes more challenging to manage as
generations come and go?”
Creativity seemed to be the theme of my
summer, particularly my trip back home to Portland. I go back here to
rejuvenate, reconnect and consolidate my thoughts to see what is next in life. I
have been collaborating and having sessions with the owner of the School of Cosmic Consciousness, Gurucharan Singh. He asks me a tough question, “What do you
want?” We all get asked that question on a continuous basis. In a society of
swimming through constant waves of desires, having the most opportunity
compared to any other time in history to have anything we want at our
fingertips, do we really know what we want? Most of us want a fulfilling
spiritual life, a satisfying career, a loving family, friends and a roof over
our head. I was raised to not ask for anything much because other kids in other
countries were starving to death and the world was in constant state of war of
some sort. If anything, it has gotten worse. So do we really have the audacity
to ask for more with the amount of privilege already bestowed on us? The answer
is yes. The bigger question, is what are you going to do once you get what you
want? How will it create a legacy of healing and happiness for others?
Countless youtube videos, life coaches,
teachers and authors share the ultimate way to get what we want. The question
is, do we really know what we want to have a fulfilling and happy life? After a
life of working, accumulation, collecting things and experiences what is left? How
do we stay connected with our creative energy when we are continuously driven
farther away from the creative source of nature itself with concrete jungles?These questions I have continuously asked
myself, often fumbling to figure out what is it that I am specifically
here to do? With a curious mind I am seeing what
creativity can be reborn through my consciousness.
Focus on One Thing you want to
create
The list can be daunting in regards to what
you want to focus on creating. I first made 4 lists- What I was grateful for, a
desire list, a short term goal list, a long term goal list. From there
Gurucharan Singh helped me narrow down one or two things I wanted to focus on.
There was a general theme of gratitude, desires, and short term/long term goals
in regards to how I wanted to grow my business and grow in my marriage and family.
Imagine what Your Life Will Look Like
Close your eyes and imagine without
hesitation the ideal life you would live. In the course, “Beyond Addiction: The
Yogic Path to Recovery”, this is also known as imagining your best future self.
Get as imaginative and detail oriented as possible. In the exercise I imagined
myself being an effective healer having a large client base, traveling to other
countries teaching Kundalini Yoga 3-6x/year to intermediate and advanced
students but also able to sustain a balanced lifestyle. I also imagined being a
mother and having an even deeper and meaningful relationship with my husband.
Use your Mind as a Servant
Imagine a whole ocean of treasure awaiting
you. You can have anything to choose from; a sunken ship, a chest of treasure,
a shoe, a tire, the infamous necklace from the Titanic movie. If you could have
any one piece of treasure in what would it be? Search through the infinite
material or immaterial possibilities that life offers. The only thing is that you have only your mind
to use as the net or special deep sea device to snatch it up. We use tools like
Kundalini Yoga, prayer, the tantric tarot, mantra and meditation to focus our
mind to find this treasure precisely. Create a prayer or affirmation in your
mind and repeat it over and over again. For example my affirmation is, “Oh my
mind, show me the infinite ways I can communicate with my husband so we can
have an awesome marriage.”
For me, having a dedicated daily sadhana
allows me to sift out the cloudiness by experiencing my full sensuality as a
human be-ing.Sadhana helps to sort through
emotions that can confuse the clarity of what my soul really wants. Start with a meditation or kriya that helps
you cultivate this creative energy such as the Kriya for Creativity or the Meditation for guidance.
Ask for Help
We have guides like the Siri Guru Granth
Sahib, angels, ascended masters and ancient teachers to show us the infinite
ways we can utilize our mind towards this steady focus. I received a healing
session lately from fellow healer and Kundalini Yoga teacher, Samantha Brown. Like other healers have said in the past,
she stated that I have a lot of angels and guides available to support me but I
don’t ask them for help. Now I am giving them practice and ask them for help in
my day to day life. The results are interesting and effective to say the least.
Thanks angels! It may take longer to
find exactly what you want with the more focus you have or it might take you
straight to the golden ticket you desire. Think of this process when visioning
conceiving a child or manifesting a conscious partner/relationship.Sometimes it takes time calling in that one
special soul into your life and sometimes it doesn’t.
On a more earthly realm you can ask people
in your support network for help in supporting you in this process. Get
involved in a meet-up group or ask someone out for a cup of tea after a yoga
class. Choose people that will not only be your cheerleader in helping you keep
focused but also those who will help keep you accountable. I have a few select
people in my life I know will cheer me on but also give me a good kick in the
ass to help me keep track on my long term goals.Only thing is you have to be willing to
accept both forms of support.
Enjoy the Process and Find Balance
In the past and even now I have fears about
wanting something too specific. Sometimes we ask ourselves, “Why try when it
might not manifest as the thing we want?” Then we end up binging on Netflix and
not doing anything out of fear of failure. The thing is the Divine already
knows what is written in your destiny but also beckons you to be a playful
collaborator in the process as a co-creator. Perhaps this is why a person who
is confident that they will get the big job promotion, pass the test, or get a
client will actually get it versus the person who resorts to constantly being
cautiously optimistic when an opportunity comes and usually isn’t happy. Sure,
perhaps it won’t turn out exactly how you thought it would, but the journey is what matters most as long as your soul is in the driver’s seat.
My first year of Traditional Chinese
Medicine school last year was more or less brutal mentally and physically,
mainly because of my outlook. I was so intently focused on ‘succeeding’ and
getting good grades while trying to manage a very busy life.I forgot the big picture of my goal that
expanding my knowledge of eastern medicine would legitimize my past and future higher
education degrees and nearly 20 years ofhealing skills. While getting wrapped up in old belief systems on how I
‘should’ learn I lost site of the legacy I wanted to create as a healer and the
legacy I wanted to create with my husband. I focused so much on comparing
myself to other students and lost track of all that I was doingright.
Focus on the ‘WHY’
Towards the end of my last term of the
first year of school I focused even more on the ‘why’ I am going back to
school. The ‘what’ and ‘how’ serves as a tool helping me achieve my desire. I
ended up getting about the same passing grades even though I studied less and
had far less stress compared to the previous terms. I still had consistent
thought patterns that said I “should” be doing more, but I chose not to give
them leverage as I was already doing so much.I was happier and so was my marriage.
What this all boils down to is
transforming uncertainty and surrendering to the mystery that we must all
continuously look at with a curious mind.
